About Me

"There is no reality except the one contained within us. That is why so many people live such an unreal life. They take the images outside them for reality and never allow the world within to assert itself.
                                                                                                              -- Hermann Hesse


We were talking about meditation in a conversation at lunch last week and someone mentioned being able to see himself from a different place during a recent meditation. It reminded me of a time in my twenties when I experienced this spontaneously as I was  getting ready for work. Back then I did transcendental meditation quite regularly, went to every church that would let me in, read my Bible, great writers and every self help guru on the market...generally, I was searching for God in every song or wave crashing into shore. I longed to feel the connection. 

As I stood in the tiny bathroom applying my makeup I suddenly noticed the hands that were lining those eyes were not mine. It was as if someone else was doing the work.  The face that was getting ready to face the world was not "me". She, was not me! This didn't frighten me. This was an understanding. I continued to watch for a time, fascinated by this awakening. This was the first automatic separation from my body I remember experiencing. Though I had been a watcher of life for a long time, usually the watching was outside of my Self. This felt good for me to know...I welcomed this insight from my Spirit.

I am writing about these things because I used to hide them and rarely talk about them since I know how crazy it sounds. Now what others think isn't as important in my life...I am one of the most grounded individuals around. What astounds me is that so many of us believe what we see on the outside is real or is any more real than what is going on inside, this place from which our lives spring.

Deepak Chopra  was once being interviewed by a newscaster who obviously didn't believe the concepts they were discussing...I remember thinking that if this very well educated brain doctor and writer of many books is being scrutinized this way what chance would I have? So mostly, I don't talk about these things except to a few. But I never shy away from the direct experience of God/Spirit/Soul/Truth.