WORK AS PLAY

BEING STUCK IS OKAY

I continue on this journey and yet I am stuck.

Today I have decided that this is okay with me, for now. I am showing up each day in my work. In this way I am uncovering my relationship with a deeper part of my Self. 

Confusion is kind a constant companion lately and I will not shy away. The confusion is a message from this deeper Me, my Spirit, that place where I am connected to God, Higher Power, Loving Presence whatever it is that others want to call it. Labels don't much matter to me. My relationship with this benevolent and loving presence is as important as the air I breathe (more, since it will still be there when I have stopped breathing). So I do not run from confusion, I stay and do what it is I need to do, while making space for what I long to do.

On October 1st this year, fear stood before me yet I leaned in and took the first step willing to be just okay, ordinary. In this process there is learning going on.

So Spirit and I have embarked on a journey together...really, we have always been on this trek only sometimes I haven't paid attention. This is a pilgrimage back to my true self, the self who knows that God is always holding me up no matter what the outside appearance seems to show. The self who knows with no doubt at all that this confusion will pass and in it's place will be  the gift of clarity.

My body and my Spirit are pleased with my yoga practice and nudge me now to expand that practice. Spirit now gently pushes me to the place of sweet discomfort in my work. Then, when this place is no longer discomforting it will be time once again to push forward, to breathe into it, to understand that all of my questioning is leading to discovery.

 The truth shall make you free.    - John 8:32