About Me

"When you lose yourself in some positive behavior, you forget your fears and worries; temporarily they cease to exist."

                                                                                            David K Reynolds

It is a gloomy day. I love these days...the cloud filled sky is casting dark shadows over every corner of my house. My office is dark but there is light on my computer so I light a candle for my writing. There is something about dark days and candles that comfort me. As I light the candle I take a moment and honor my Mother, it is a ritual I started after she died...

These drizzly days also take me back to the day my son was born. It was rainy as we headed to the hospital and that day gave me the most blissful love filled moments of my life. I had him naturally... with no drugs and I experienced the opening between wherever we come from and our place in the world. Pure unencumbered Spirit filled the room with a love so strong it was palpable...even the light changed...very difficult to describe. Descriptions of people who have had near death experiences are the same...the light and being ensconced in a powerful blissful love.

Today my son came into my office to talk out a situation and solicit advice and when he rose to leave he thanked me for always being there for him. I looked at the intelligent, thoughtful man he has become and know that Spirit has led me to "guide him without interfering, to nurture without grasping and to shelter without claiming". It is Spirit that he is drawn to...he can go directly to this guidance and by pass me, but for now he sometimes comes to me. I am grateful for that since I released him to adulthood awhile back.

The other thing that I love about rainy days is the knowing that the rain will stop. That the sun will shine again and brighten the world as it warms my skin. Blue skies will appear as the clouds break away. Life is really, really good even on the darkest days.

My hope is that you know this to and that you can hold this knowing in your darkest times.

Until next time...

 

Work As Play

"...so me and my silence sometimes need this meeting"

                                                                                                  arteiracraft
  

It is national heart month...the paper this morning had an article on what to do for a healthy heart. The four "do's" that they mentioned are: eat better, exercise everyday, get enough sleep and manage your stress. This is good advice, I guess, though it leaves out an important part of the equation. "Pay attention to your heart", Spirit whispers.

I met myself on the mat this morning for a Yin yoga class. This is slow moving and holding poses for longer than usual. It is a good way to meet your discomfort. Most of us would like to sidestep discomfort and, usually I am one of them, but this morning with the sun streaming in warming my muscles, I embraced it. I allowed the healing light of Spirit to wash over me. Noticing where the stretch would end,,,then breathing there, letting the release happen, or not. 

How our heart feels is a good indicator of how close to Spirit we are living our lives. Sometimes I pay attention and many times I do not. But this morning the healing light of the heart chakra washed over me, opened me, leaving a quiet but pure joy. It was a beautiful way to start the day.

Arriving home I opened the front door to my light filled entryway...sunlight filled the room warming the terracotta floors. Everything was quiet for a moment then the ethereal sound of old Irish ballads came on (a gift from my husband who must have turned on the music before heading to the office). I need to remember to thank him since this is his least favorite music and one of my favorites.

During my meditation I turn to silence. Some days I live in silence all day...these days are dear to me, it is in the silent meetings with Spirit that I most notice my how my life looks and how my heart truly feels. It is in these intentional times with Spirit I gain insight and direction. It is here that I can forgive myself for not being "enough". 

Today my heart is somewhat troubled and a little like the discomfort I danced with on the mat...as I held that discomfort I knew that it would be over soon. The trouble in my heart is my Spirit letting me know that something is off kilter...in my noticing I also know "that this to. shall pass"....

What is happening in your heart today? I hope that you can lovingly embrace whatever it is...and know that it will not remain...we are changing every moment of everyday that we are here...even when we don't notice the change it is still moving through us.

Take just a few minutes in silence and be okay with where you are and who you are...and embrace the happiness if that is what you find.

Until next time....

Namaste